charles g. mullen

A New Door Will Open

To realize the value of existence is anything but ignorant.

The reward is life.

Deep appreciation ensues..

This is not something that can ever full be grasped through written word.

Knowing this, I’m going to take the blog down.

“The Self within the heart is like a boundary which divides the world from That. Wherefore he who has crossed that boundary, and has realized the Self; if he is blind, ceases to be blind; if he is wounded, ceases to be wounded; if he is afflicted, ceases to be afflicted.” -Chandogya Upanishad

Push

Everytime you feel contempt for somebody..

the only real person who gets arrested

is yourself.

What I Mean

The things I wonder, trying to figure out why I’m here and for what purpose. This.. cannot be understood nor communicated verbally..but alas, I will try..

I feel like a visitor trying to acclimate and exist in this strange and hostile environment. I’m less of a fighter. More of a defender. Defender of the natural world in which we all live. I’m harmless. I personally don’t like violence. The answers to the ills of the world and a deep desire to cure these ills is what drives me. That’s what I’m defending. I’m not on anybody’s side, not my own, not your own, but our own side — the ’side’ of being humane.. There’s something very painfully real about being who I am and embracing it. It’s so hard to find anybody who really understands me and doesn’t pass me off as a flighty, reclusive, quixotic fascination.

What’s seen on the surface is a strange idealist. To me, these ideals are not impossible dreams. They are real. More real than anything else. It is a driving force. The Good things in life is what gives everything meaning. Like a friend reaching out, with nothing but good intention, with all the knowledge and desire to heal and touch, but what I realize is that some do not want to be touched.

It’s so painful to watch people I know suffer from something that just doesn’t have to be.. It doesn’t matter if you’re of the pragmatic majority or in the minority. You are still a person. The ideal in this country is to be outgoing and aggressive, that just doesn’t have to be. It can be mentally, physically, and psychologically numbing and taxing at times. I feel that I have a clear sense of what is ethical and a deep-felt compassion for those that suffer..

Do you ever feel that there should be a counterweight?

A kind of leverage that is provided against the madness and harsh realities of this world?

“Deep listening is miraculous for both listener and speaker. When someone receives us with open-hearted, non-judging, intensely interested listening, our spirits expand.” ~Sue Patton Thoele quotes

Slow Down..Read Carefully

Before reading, I want you to slow down. Pay full and complete attention. Read it carefully, fully. Please..

Human perspective..

If it at all starts getting too heavy..read when you are more readily prepared, calm and free of distraction..

Every person must experience something in their own light to truly understand the gravity of that experience. This is so, to fit it into their each and own dynamic and unique way of seeing and interacting with the world. One question, are we place our primary need on feeding our own self-gratification, or are we in the moment including other human beings? At base, we are made of the same molecules, our bodies situated with mainly water, we all have access to the same functions (there are the truly unfortunate few, that do not), we all have a brain, a heart, a soul. They can seem close, or they can be far off waiting to be discovered. But one thing is sure, we are all the same. Knowledge acquired with the unknowingly attempt to use as a defense mechanism, strongly disagrees with embracing your life. This defense tower built during our lifetimes are the result of societal conditioning. Our lack of properly aimed curiosity is going to be the death of us. We were all born sharing the planet, it doesn’t matter where you came from and it doesn’t matter if we have opposing views. They are just beliefs. The only real fact is that we’re human, purely the state of being, existence. Any mental imagery, knowledge base, or otherwise, is the eventual death of the human race. It it will do is result in a massive amount of misunderstandings, person by person, culture by culture, war by war, attack by attack, physical or mental. We are killing ourselves…slowly…we need to wake up. The guards, the built up defenses conditioned into us at a young age by means of the media and television, with carefully manufactured symbolism to control directions of thoughts. Without this knowledge, you will then be able to see that everybody is truly equal. Anyone can change, grow, flower, nurture, whatever it is you want to call it, at any time.

There is much hope. We must find ourselves, and that only comes within. No external knowledge is valid, we are really only “one”. Breathe in the fresh air, and relax.. Life is yours, and the experiences that come with it, yours and yours alone. Experience cannot be communicated in words. It is mostly perceived and felt internal to yourself. We are the architects within our own life. We take responsibility. We are called to duty. We make our own contributions. Your special way of interacting with people, and the world. This is life. We are living it. Now. Moment by moment..we are still existing in the moment..and every moment is brand new. The moment is so natural that it defies all explanation. No matter how young, middle aged, or older, you are.. you still have an infinite amount of moments and experiences to capture and discover. We shouldn’t need be plagued by fear and the presence of others, see them in ways of a genuine and heart felt manner. We don’t want to be walking around in a dream-like avoiding uncertainty. We should experience as much as possible while we are still living and breathing. Value human interaction.

Believe in yourself. Show unconditional whatever it is you have to offer; and embrace it, truly! Courage and faith are like muscles. They must be growing in order for these qualities to flourish. Give life its proper regards, that being it should be lived out as fully and passionately as possible! Anyone not participating in long division between people, who are sensitive and attentive?..:o …Feed the flame inside of you….inside all of us all. People are important. You are important.. Lift each other up when they need a pick up. The simple things are what counts most. To overlook them is to overlook life. We don’t simply want to have more, but be more. Pay attention to imagination once in a while, adding color, depth, richness, and meaning to our mundane phenomena of that we call reality. We should idolize nobody and respect everybody, equally. Labels put one another in gilded cages. We are more than just a label. We are more than just a role. We are human! Our origin of nature is a complete mystery. We should never lose our curiosity, our own sense of wonder.

Let’s shatter the box, the ones we put ourselves in. This veil of an illusion. The very social rules that prevents us from being ourselves. Embrace the innate gift of having and embracing your very own ears of depth. We are all intrinsically strong and deep inside. We all have the capacity! Listen to one another. Open your soul. This is the end, and a new beginning..

Every person means the world to me…I deeply appreciate everything and everybody. Just take time to listen..

“…if I have not loved, then I am nothing.” ~Paul The Apostle

“Without art, the crudeness of reality would destroy us all.”
~George Bernard Shaw

past few weeks I’ve learned..

that it’s not evil to put yourself first

while you cant control what happens to you all the time, you can at least control how you react to it

there is no grand or unifying anything in life

fear is a powerful illusion

living in the moment has so much truth to it

being able to laugh at myself is true liberation

things get better, then worse, then better, then…in order to grow…it’s how we handle ourselves in the worst moments that show us the light

the conscious act of trying to make sense of things is not liberating

not going to waste time worrying about people who don’t care about me

ideals shape our future, if it takes 10 years, 100 years, or even 1000+ years - that’s how new civilizations come into, and then they are attempted to become systematized which then deadens the spirit & essence of that civilization. the teachings of religions/ideals/rules that existed thousands of years ago aren’t in harmony with humans in today’s age, and as we evolve into even more and more complex beings, we must adapt — or suffer.

trying to define anything is useless

we live in an age of an artificially occurring information epidemic

seeking money directly is not my path to true happiness

in the end, i make my decisions; and you make yours

and the only real fact that i know is that i know nothing..

rela(y)te

i look outside
repetitious of the figures all the same
the familiar stares and the images left
to remind us of something that we think, cannot change
open up, competition is a dying trend my friend
a trend that wont last here on this planet
these self destructive tendencies are attacks
slowly, subtlety. the poison drips
open your eyes to the melody
let it play, the rhythm of life

-Charles

Hiatus

Right now I have not cultivated complete free-spiritedness in the presence of others.

Not yet.

The few ideas I do have for bringing this out in totality are in complete harmony with my values and who I am…but….

A certain priority speaks out to me.

I must do this first.

I must first complete what I have previously set out to complete.

We’ll soon meet again.

-Charles

Listen to the Melody of Life

To transcend social stigmas…

Entering a pure and paradoxical existence.

We all live in different worlds.

Experience - fresh, invigorating, alive.

Reality is not all that we see.

A world consisting of constantly shifting dynamics.

The flexibility of nothing.

Change is happening in every surreal moment of our life.

A person who hums, knowing it has many layers of vibrations.

And that there is more than just sound.

Patterns are no longer just conceptual knowledge.

Categorization offers, but a polite decline as it is but a tool.

Divergence.

The very object in front can be seen many different ways.

The axis moving freely, not bound by a line.

The human functions always abound.

That object, did you question which object or did you find an object to fill its place?

We don’t need facts to come up with coherent answers.

Life isn’t bound by rules.

Life is yours.

We don’t need discipline by other people.

Look to yourself, for you know all the answers.

Rules are the antithesis to life.

Marginalization is counter-productive.

When you can, just live.

Truly. Love. Life.

-Charles

Overlooked

Who are you?

I’ve forgotten about you.

Lost in the embodiment of reality.

The lure has been so great.

A place I’ve never seen before.

Enigmatically running.

A paradise pure full of streams.

Reentry.

Now it is.

It’s time.

Now to reclaim you.

The forgotten art of listening.

I turn to you.

Fate personified.

The sweet nodes of relaxation.

-Charles

An Illustration I Drew Up

Within Boundary and Confinement